exam stress~

i dont know why i will be like that

STRESS!!

actually my problem not only happend between exam period

before presentation or other things i will also be like that

before exam, because of STRESS i cant concentrated on my notes

during exam, because of STRESS i lose my confident on the paper

after exam, because of STRESS i not dare to do the revision on next subject

so, is it my physical mental problem??

i just want be a normal student

do well in the exam

but why??

it will appeared many such thing in my mind??

STRESS PLEASE GO AWAY FROM ME!!!

review~

just go my friendster profile

saw my last post at there (friendster's blog)...

<难过的一天…>

新年刚开始不到四天的我,身材已经开始胖了…在我的建议下,我和我的dear dear决定到水坝跑步!今天一大早,我就把我的dear dear给叫醒,准备开始我的减肥计划!一路上我们都有说有笑,到了水坝,我把我和dear dear的钱包和电话收在一个蛮安全的地方,就下车了….

过了大约四十五分钟,我们又有说有笑的走回车上..当我要开门的时后,我觉得很奇怪为什么副座的门怎么没琐上,但上车后,我也没发现有什么不妥!运动后 的我最想要做的就是喝水,喝完后就把水递给我dear dear,在这个时候我dear dear就想把钱包和电话拿出来…过一会儿,他一脸又紧张又疑惑的问我是不是已经把东西给拿出来了?但我明明没动到啊?!?!?

听到他这样问,不用想也知道是发生了什么大事了…我直接把所有地方给搜了两三遍,但就是找不到了:(…到最后我终于放弃了,而我心里那种复杂的心情,直接 泪如雨下,无法控制!在旁还搞不清楚状况的dear dear给我这种反应给吓到了,他连忙在旁安慰我这个反应过大的女朋友…

冷静后的我就检查看看到底我和dear dear损失到多严重….哇靠,不算还ok,一算就大件事了…大约有RM3000啊…oh my god,无法接受这个事实,再度失控…过了数十几分钟,又被我的dear dear平抚了我的心情…过后就回家了!在回他家的路上,平时很叽喳的我,变到很沉默…{连我本身都无法相信}

发生这样的事,连吃早餐的胃口都没了…中午十二点,直到我做工时,就以吃来解决心里的不愉快…大约一点多时,我dear dear出现在我做工的地方,把一模一样的电话交给了我!他说:’那,这个电话给你…’!我还没反应过来,新电话就被他塞在我的手里!过后他就回家了…

到了傍晚六点多,我dear dear又来载我放工了!放工后我就到他家吃饭!过后再回家…

回到家后,我妈就问我很多问题,但我都把东西被偷的事给删了,只说我电话没电了之类的话来掩饰!因为只要我妈知道此事,我看我的耳朵就要受罪了…

总之,2008年2月10日可说是我最难忘的一天啊……………….

当然也希望这件事能瞒多久就瞒多久:(…

haiz~

but i still using that~

i cant ~

almost 1 month already

i though i can really put down the thing between u n me

but today i just realize that

i may to celebrate the " anniversary" every month

when i at school, i feel good, because of my friends

but sometime when i back hostel/home, i will start to think about the things that we had done together

i know someone was waiting

i know someone will get hurt

but as i know is i can't easily to forget what had pass in my life

may be that is a challenge for me, to help me grown

and yet i haven't start to accept this challenge

thats why, it always make me feel complicated, down and sad><

i can't i can't i can't !!!

just right now!

我不是。。。

我不是。。。

不是个好女孩
也不是个坏女孩
*
脾气不是很好
但也不是很坏
*
性格有时很顺他人
有时也会很固执
*
不是你想象中的那样好
也不是你想象中的那样坏
*
不是你口中，心中的好女孩
也不是你口中。心中的坏女孩
*
不是那么的笨
但也不是很聪明
*
不善于表达内心
但又很想表达
*
很想勇于尝试
但害怕失败
*
想勇敢踏出那一步
却不舍得

我不是个懦弱的女孩
只是不够坚强

而我

现在就只想做个普通的，平凡的，简单的女孩~

梦~

在我的梦里，又有你的出现，

是我日有所思，夜有所梦吗？

以前的我，不管梦到好梦还是恶梦，

隔天醒来，就会打通电话给你。

如果是恶梦，你也会说，--

“不要乱乱想啦，如果真的发生了，有我在；
以后睡觉前就不要想太多，如果不能睡就打给我咯，我的电话为你开着的。。”

现在勒？只能一个人在那边酸着鼻，流着泪。。

这才发现，醒后的得我

很寂寞，很孤单。。。。。。

我选择了~

由于寂寞,我选择了挣脱.

由于清醒,我选择了沉思.

由于看不见未来,我选择了放弃.

由于放弃,我选择了眼泪.

由于割舍,我选择了释然.

由于释然,我选择了坚强.

由于坚强,我选择了遗忘…是的,

我遗弃了爱情,背叛了爱情.

我做对了吗？

i am wrong~

i think that i make the decision will reduce the stress between you and me..

but i am wrong, i am not saying i am regret now..

just i cant stop to think of you..

whatever i do, i just like lost my soul, stand at there for few second,

when i realize, that is over...

what can i do now..

when face to my friends i cant really say out the word from my heart..

so i just can assume nothing happen on me..

still like last time d me..always laugh, naughty and ...

but i think this few days my friends may start to realize that i actually changes a lots..

especially the ways i talk to them..

since i read an article, said that:" 21 years old d, no more time to let you play even is a little thing.."

should i forget all the silly thing and find out the right way for myself...

sorry ya, this few day i really cant stop it,

wake up wake up!!!
even i wrong now!!!
no turning back!!!

miss u~

1 week ago-
i decided-


yesterday-
i miss u while i do anything-
when i driving-
drinking milo-
taking bath-
hold the phone waiting a call/message from u-
login Facebook wanna know how are you recently-
but you block my account since that moment-
dreaming about u when i sleep-


i miss you when i do anything~

the changes of mine~is because of "u"

all the changes of mine is because of you

i cut my hair is because of you

i improve myself is because of you

i try to change my attitude is because of you

i follow what you instruct me is because of you

i accept all your habit is because of you

i treat you great is because of you

you get hurt/ sad, i will worry about is because of you

you laugh/ happy, i will happy than you also because of you

you know what the feeling i face to you
so, do you understand what i am feel you right now??
so, do you understand why i wanna changes myself??

all are because of "U"~

moody~

just back from the gurney (sing K+dinner)..
my wallet thin liao~haha^^
but felt happy also..
because long time didn't hang out with u all ..
so very appreciate that i have a group of friends like u all...

when i driving to hostel, i think about a thing that i should apologize to my friend..
but i really don't know how i gonna to do..
because i don't know had i doing something wrong to that person or not...
that just of my feeling..

anyway, i should look forward, so i should start my public speakings outline now,
if not i will die very soon...
now no mood and also no have motivate to brainstorm~
god bless me~~

i am not a good gal~

i am not a good gal...
don't know why i said like tat,
but i felt like i will always hurt the others..
actually the action will not hurt the others
i might let the others get hurt one day..
so, what should i do, just can reduce the trouble things happen around you and me..

i really treat you as my "Best Friend",
because i am lose an importance thing few weeks ago and i still need to treat others good to balance my mind..
may be its really will let you feel that i am abnormal,
but i really don't know what can i do...

and i really can't promise what will happen in my future,
because i can't hurt by others anymore
my heart is weak now..
who can save me??
so am i not a good gal?

mass comm 1 day camp..

our mass comm society d 1st event was success ...

i try to get d feedback from d senior n also d junior...

although i get d different feedback from them, but i will do d better than tat on next time..

so need to thank d helper, and d senior n junior..who attended tat day...

COMPLETED ~YEAH~

857days...

857 days tat we are couple...tat was over since today!

read it, if u like...

* I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我爱你，不是因为你是一个怎样的人，而是因为我喜欢与你

在一 起时的感觉..


* No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won‘t make you cry.
没有人值得你流泪，值得让你这么做的人不会让你哭泣..


*The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can‘t have them.
失去某人，最糟糕的莫过于，他近在身旁，却犹如远在天边..


*Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
纵然伤心，也不要愁眉不展，因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容..


*To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
对于世界而言，你是一个人；但是对于某个人，你是他的整个世 界..


*Don‘t waste your time on a man/woman, who isn‘t willing to waste their time on you.
不要为那些不愿在你身上花费时间的人而浪费你的时间..


*Just because someone doesn‘t love you the way you want them to, doesn‘t mean they don‘t love you with all they have.
爱你的人如果没有按你所希望的方式来爱你，那并不代表他们没 有全心全意地爱你..


*Don‘t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要着急，最好的总会在最不经意的时候出现..


* Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
在遇到梦中人之前，上天也许会安排我们先遇到别的人；在我们 终于遇见心仪的人时，便应当心存感激..


* Don‘t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因为结束而哭泣，微笑吧，为你的曾经拥有..

chinese..华语。。久违了。。

好久没用华文来部落，部落一下了。。

今天就来重温华文吧。。

刚考完一科ELECTRONIC PUBLISHING~~

应该可以过吧。。不懂？？看老师咯~~

说到考试。。别人就快考完了，我勒。咳~竟然到26号才完。。

都是自己笨咯。。又不努力。。最后‘肥佬’了。。被迫补考，靠~

接下来要‘受’的就是华文科了。。

所以加油咯~

亦希望我的朋友们可以pass到完啦~

+u +u 咯，还有“奸爸爹”咯（刚重看72家，学到的）