希望 - 绝望

22th April, i am going to attend to a camp at KL

this few days reli happened many thingssss

for sure, i learned alot at thr

i been motivate by them
cannot easily give up

be tough

then u will be success 1day~

ya, that i learn from there with them that who already success

besides, i also go for body checking~

take few pictures friends and SS-ing

shoot with the gals group~

1st--the palace of golden house hotel bathroom, so big so class, love it

2nd--at the hall with friend--Debby Pang

SS-ing with tired looks~

FINISHED CAMP~

but there also got something that make me suffer

1 is d relationship..

i still remember what i told debby that day..

1st MEP that i attended, we just start, everyone envy on us

but

2nd MEP that i attented, we broke without any explanation and infroming..

because i am d last person that know the NEWS

i dun know..

got someone asking me :"r u ok?y u look like nothing happened d??"

how do i answer...just can said, :" i am ok la..no need to worry about me..just i already accept d truth.."

maybe i already accept few weeks ago, and i only angry why both of us din say anything yet but already get the conclusion..and the most important is i am d last person know wat was happened!!

after that i go to 1U wif few of my friends

go there movie, pool and play games to release out the ruffle!

and i reli want to thanks u guys help me when i face something like tat...

really appreciate that i have a group of friends like YOU~

anyway, thx^^

am i wrong?

actually i felt i doing something wrong d...

i dun know tat 101 is real or what

but it make me suffer all the time

tat is impossible...for me la...but for u i reli dun know...

u treat me like tat i will terkejut...although i know i like the person u are...

BUT NOW is

wrong timing...

so how i solve tat??
or just continue?

because already poison d..

who can teach me??

My 22th BiRtHd@y~

just over my 22th birthday

actually i am planing to celebrate alone d

d plan change after tat

my friends came from Ipoh there to Penang to celebrate wif me...

but when d time celebrating actually is over 12am [20th April]

they know i like sing K,

den we went to Gurney Redbox sing till 3am

before 3am..my friend [I.W] choose a birthday song for me...

but i still blur blur and follow them sing...

suddenly 1 of my friend [T.M] came from outside and holding the cake with d candle

and 1 of my friend[D.N] bcome photographer automatically..[so gam dong~]

taking few pic...blow candle and eat...

1st time i eat d cake like tis...hehe^^

so happy^^

[will upload d pic later cos the camera is not around me...^^, waiting d photographer sending me, wait patiently la^^]

copy paste..but i love tis~

你可知道
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。 。 。 。 。 。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！ 。 。 。 。 。 。
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界..

y u come back??

today should be a busy day for me...

but because of something emergency..den cos me not busy as what i think

dun know why

i wanna scold ppl, i wanna bite ppl, i wanna hit ppl...

my mood suddenly down till no1 will know wat is going on, include me,myself

got the thinking

...is it i already cheat by some1, the person actually cheat me but

me still like a stupid stand at there and believe wat the cheater is cheated...

should i continue to believe wat the person said??

or juz leave it and act nothing

please la, i dun like this thing, can you give me a good 1...i know no1 is perfect, but...

i dun wan very good...but can make d situation better abit??

is terrible mood that i never ever had b4...

SHIT!!!

try~

what happen to me..

my mind always think of the unnecessary things

it make me going to crazy

but why

ISHHHHHHH!!!

i only can communicate to that person in different way

is that i am too sensitive already?

i try my best to stop to think

because i know you need to do your thing

you busy...

yaya, i know you are busy,

but why last time u can inbox me when u actually busy

how tired, busy you are, you will also send or make a call to me, and let me know d location you are, and wont have a chance to make me worry ...

but now [ i am not complain/ blame], i felt you really busy on the things

and for me...i only can waiting but not sms or make a called directly...because i know you are busy, i scare i am disturbing u..

and i only hope that, u can sms me when u free..even 1 message...is enough for me happy for a day...

i know that is what i going to face, because i know what i want in future..

hope u can let me felt secure in future, but not the worries...

maybe you may think i am childish, but i can tell is that is the reaction of sensitivity ...

i am so sorry about that [sorry i just shout out here, no other meaning]

what you had told me before,
start from i thought you are kidding untill now i believe you in everything...i still remember whatever you said..

hope u dont forget what you said, then is enough for me~





love you
miss you~

发愣～

今早，不懂做么，醒来时，觉得心情很差

从镜子看到的我是一个很没有自信，很颓废，没用的人

明天考试了

我的心还停留在昨天颓废的活动上

我的心一直骂着自己：

“快读呀！整天发愣没用的。。”

越骂我自己越退缩，越没自信

突然有种想放弃的念头。。
［虽然我一直在鼓励着我的朋友不要放弃，希望在明天，但。。我自己也不过如此］

好吧，开始读了。。

我好厉害呐，一边读，我的脑是在发梦的哦。。

读完整句。。脑也跟着清醒了。。

有没搞错。。我的脑袋装着什么东东哦。。
咳～

突然，手痒了起来，就抓咯。。抓抓一下，就流料西北多血。。我自己也吓到。。

［当时的想法是。。这星期天要捐血，现在不要流太多啊～］

到料不懂几点，我开始想R.D了。。

最近也不懂做么

我的泪很浅。。动不动就哭了。。

怎么啦？？

：“没什么啦，就想一个人不可以是嘛。。是很想很想，并不是普通的想。。但又能怎样？？”

sob sob~

到现在。。。
读书－－发愣
没读书－－发愣
看着书－－发愣
前天考试－－发愣

发愣有钱拿hor...读书啦～

颓废一下

昨天考完两张paper料

然后睡了一整天

吃饱，玩电脑一下。。

真的很颓废一下咯。。。

明明还有考试，但却没去读书。。

好吧就好好颓废多那一下

但等下给我去读书料！

不然。。一个月后。。你就懂料。。

病了

今天整天都在读明天将考的书

但然还一直的想着他。。

知道晚上，1130pm， 他send了信息给我但我因为在忙着，所以没留意

但我看到时吓倒了，他那健康的体魄竟然不敌病魔如侵，生病料。。

我看到时，第一时间打了电话给他，信息他。。

了解后，并不是放心了，而是哭了。。

我怪自己不留意，不关心。。。

最重要的是，我并不能第一时间下去照顾他。。好惭愧。。

但我会一直为他祈祷，快快好起来。。加油呀~

R.D， 你放心吧，我这边有你的支持，我会很好，但你也要快快好起来呀，不许在这样无声无息的就一个人生病也不告诉我。。我会很担心+伤心的。。

[看到，我直接吓到。。。]

the decision

i make the decision at McD just now

may be that is for my own good, and only that i can success in my future

when i make tis cruel decision, i felt very pain

but the things only u know i know that can already la...

so just let it be...

and now i wanna concentrate in my study for the final exam

i can do well d ...+U

i wanna success in everywhere

god bless me...

and affirmation pls come to me...

uhsa uhsa!!

加油~

刚才我的朋友说我变料哦。。？？

真的吗？？

但我相信这点改变是不会影响我们的，但还是要和你们说声对不起。。

但说真的，我最近都比较忙，就忙好多好多的东西。。

因为我要开始面对我人生未来的路，20多岁咯，不想难道叫人养么。。

就算有人想养，我也不要。。太没面子了！！

当然考试当前，我的心情又和上次一样紧张+压力。。能突破拿到比以前好的成绩么？？

我一定可以的^^

加油咯。。我的朋友们，我们一起加油吧~