last post of year 2010^^

今天是2010年的最后一天

大家有什么愿望勒？？

我嘛？？有好多哦。。

1- 写最后一篇2010的文章

2- 收拾干净我的房间

3-洗完所有的脏衣服

很容易吧，所以我做完了。。嘻嘻^^

接下来的，难咯~但我有信心把它做好！！

1- 考试全部及格

2- CGPA上3.0以上

3- 减肥--48KG

4- “享受” 完diploma的日子

5- 顺顺利利毕业

6- 想想要未来的方向--升学？？工作？？

7- 储蓄了，为了未来

好多。。但目前先把书给读了吧，不然1和2的就达不到料~

我的朋友们，大家加油哦，我们要一起在2011年一起毕业哟！！

想到都兴奋了呵~~所以一起加油啦^^

当然朋友们，我爱你们哦^^, friendship 4ever

set you target of year 2011 now la……^^

周华健--朋友，献给所有我爱的朋友们

祝你们新年快乐哦^^

搞掂考试先！

距离考试不远咯

你们准备好了吗？？

没有？？？有？？？

我嘛？？有咯，讲料都有点心虚pun咯...哈哈>///<

真的啦，有读到啦，只是不多而已啦

不知做么咯，看到书就有严重的睡意

要怎样噢？？

泡参又不喜欢，怎样给我的脑袋精神点哦。。。懊恼~

haiz~

但无论如何 我都要达到我的目标

所以你要加油呀

别让自己失望

战胜自己是最重要滴。。。^^

林俊杰--会读书，

*大家考试加油咯^^

久别了~

算算下，都差不多一个月多没写我的回忆了

不懂什么时候，我忘了还有这么的一个空间来让我文字发泄

这一个月多发生料somok事勒？？

好多，真的好多！


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ thinking ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


身为爱情奴隶的我，自从上一站离开后，还以为我的下一站幸福来了
但并不是，是我太在乎爱情的存在吗？还是我天生就没有那种命来“晒”
真的有那么么一阵子让我再相信爱情的可信度
但我又错了！

身为学业奴隶的我，再一次发现成绩差不是天生的，只视乎你到底在不在乎
一旦在乎了，努力了还是差，就证明“你是天生的”~~嘻嘻
不是在说我啦，只是我领悟到的。。
因为这证明料我只是懒惰咯
所以咯，陈珮颐，要加油，还有几天的时间给你在乎而已，
起码要对得起自己嘛！

身为减肥奴隶的我，天天喊要减肥，却天天在吃
有用吗？这样是减不到的咯！
还不戒嘛，肥死了！！
新年要到料咯，再不戒衣服都穿不下料咯
行动行动最实际的了，所以。。。少吃点咯，这样应该可以了吧!?

咳~~~

说真的，考试真的要到了

也是时候认真一下料咯~

也希望我所有的朋友也 加油 下下咯^^

Really?

i dont know what happen

i saw my friend status put something about both of u

i thought i am strong and i can accept anything

but

I AM WRONG

i press the few keys and go in to the profile

i saw d profile picture change already

and you two look really sweet and happy

and i direct regret what i had done

because i really cant accept

even that was happened 3 months++ ago

NOW

every night i felt moody

but luckily

i still felt the concern from my friends

so..thanks my lovely friends

but really

i want to say

my life is no you anymore

but i am still have my friend..

REALLY

i am so appreciate of it...

犯错~

最近爱上了这首歌
是位中国的歌手唱的。。（应该啦~不是很确定。。><）
这首歌唱出了我心里的话
我不懂
我不懂
真的不懂
但过去了
你开始了新的一段
是我
还不愿意放开
还在原地踏步
不敢踏出一步
还在妄想你会回到我的身边
能怎样
有时真的好辛苦
别人不知道
还以为我真的放开了
但
并不是那么的容易


By 斯琴高丽

沉默不是代表我的错
分手不是唯一的结果
我只是还没有想好该怎么对你说
沉默不是代表我的错
伤心不是唯一的结果
只想再听你说一次你依然爱着我
既然你并没有犯错
为什么还要躲着我
我每天都这么的难过
到底我做错了
既然你并没有犯错
为什么还要不理我
你什么都不肯对我说
请你不要再沉默。。。

终于~

YESTERDAY

i had an idea which is delete all things about u

but i know i cant

so i decide to step forward -- step by step

i deleted "her" profile from my FB profile

that mean i cant even know how r u recently

because i really need to force myself to look forward

u had told me before

if we "break"

will not be a friend anymore

i think u are right

now i felt that if one day i face to you at somewhere

i wont talk to u too

i will choose to turn over

because i really dun know what topic still can talk with u

and the most important thing is

the person who stay in your heart nor longer is me

same

who stand beside you also not me

i know i cant accept

so i can only choose to disappear in front of you

TODAY

i step a bit forward again

i already deleted the "sweet" pic from FB

my friends and me wont saw it anymore

and i no need to care the comment said about...

:"you 2 so sweet.." some kind of those words...

NOW

i think i can
i will try to forget all about the pain
but sweet memories i will keep it
because
i know YOU teach me many things
i know YOU had love dearly to me in your life time
i know YOU bring many happiness to me
i know YOU really concert everything of me

but just maybe im not your Ms. Right
so hope you happy always ^^
with "her"^^

还是一样

过了两个月了吧

在寂寞的夜里会想着你

上网第一时间会想看看你有没有在线

吃方便面时会想起和你争食物的画面

煮正餐时会想起你是个连荷包蛋都不会的小少爷

吃早餐时会想到柜子里还留着你爱吃的“早餐谷粮”

在寒冷的夜里会想起你温馨的盖被方式

在无所事事的时候会想起你会试出你的神功来搔我得痒

在特别的节日时会想起我给你惊喜后的表情

在我不开心时会想起你给我的安慰

在我开心时会想起你看着我微笑的表情 好像我开心你就开心

在我想你的时候会想起平时的我是多么依赖你

在我想要和你在一起时会想起我当初已作了决定

所以。。。没得想了~

但还是一样，好想你。。。

remember??

today is your Chinese birthday

last 2 years i celebrated through the phone by MMS

because the date was near my Final Exam

so impossible back hometown celebrated with you

have she celebrate with you today??

hope she have

hope you remember what i had did for you

just want you Remember~

few days later

your birthday is coming

have she prepare??

hope she have

just want you happy everyday

because i cant do anything for you already

and the person will replace by her start from now~

突然好想和你庆祝><

我以为！！

曾经

我以为我们可以在一起到永远

我以为我们的感情永不变

我以为我们从不说“分手”

我以为我们是朋友眼中模范的一对

我以为我在你眼里是最棒的

我以为每次醒来就会看到你

我以为有什么事你都会在我身边

我以为每次的挽回会有永远



我以为我是个坚强的女孩

我以为我可以大方的祝福你们

我以为我的眼泪不会再流了

我以为

我以为

我以为

没以为了

傻婆

醒吧

看清楚了吗

是你说放弃的

别再以为了！！！

FINALLY!!

i saw u changes the status

"is in relationship"

i knew that will happened between u and her

u had told me before

u said u and "she" was impossible

but now, was became true

that's mean my six-sense was correct last time

what i wan to say??

congrats to u ??

or

curse u??

anyway, hope that you really think that she is the 1 u want

and i wont curse u

because

i just want u happy ever after

and

CONGRATS!!!

even my heart is bleeding now><
congrats><

Again!

work at QB

drive to Penang by UNSER

scare scare><

just lost between layhoon's house and DUN KNOW WHERE><

but luckily, i still know phone her come and SAVE ME

after that we go Station 1 chit chat lo^^

but hor...

i heard d singer sang the song was very sad, and it let me think of U

but i already stop my tear, i dun wan "u" out

AM I STRONG??

but i am still sad of it..

how can??

that was our decision

i think i will take a long long period to become more strong

but while i worked, i saw many friends

and they all fall in love with their sweet heart

just only me..

now already NOTHING!!

and it happened again and again...cant stop><

flash back...

i woke up this morning

suddenly saw my past birthday present in my bedroom

long time dint look again my present gave by my friends who had attend my party

i saw a "cute" friend/course mate wrote in a b'day card
:" u old d, but u cannot angry abt what i say , because it will let u look more "old"..."
but luckily the wish was "stay pretty" , hehe :)

and i realised that all my friends know me very well, cos the ribbon all are tie with purple colour, even the present box,b'day card...(actually i keep all the things, like ribbon, box and ...)

and it let me think of the day of my party...

everyone wish me, everyone enjoy it, everyone "play" me...

and also YOU are the one who involve in..

then start again the imagine..

Flash Back...

something is good but mostly is bad...

but i just can keep You as "flash back"..

so...

i am Flash Back+ing again^^

life of year 2 ~

my year 2 life was very busy tired and also not confident at all...

the assignment = hard

the exam = very hard

the mental problem = serious

the stress = very serious

what should i do, i just want graduate with merit result

but why i saw the exam Q. felt like i cant graduate

very scare now

hope can pass all

hope dont let me do 2nd time of the same paper

hope hope hope

also prove that study not as easy as you think

exam stress~

i dont know why i will be like that

STRESS!!

actually my problem not only happend between exam period

before presentation or other things i will also be like that

before exam, because of STRESS i cant concentrated on my notes

during exam, because of STRESS i lose my confident on the paper

after exam, because of STRESS i not dare to do the revision on next subject

so, is it my physical mental problem??

i just want be a normal student

do well in the exam

but why??

it will appeared many such thing in my mind??

STRESS PLEASE GO AWAY FROM ME!!!

review~

just go my friendster profile

saw my last post at there (friendster's blog)...

<难过的一天…>

新年刚开始不到四天的我,身材已经开始胖了…在我的建议下,我和我的dear dear决定到水坝跑步!今天一大早,我就把我的dear dear给叫醒,准备开始我的减肥计划!一路上我们都有说有笑,到了水坝,我把我和dear dear的钱包和电话收在一个蛮安全的地方,就下车了….

过了大约四十五分钟,我们又有说有笑的走回车上..当我要开门的时后,我觉得很奇怪为什么副座的门怎么没琐上,但上车后,我也没发现有什么不妥!运动后 的我最想要做的就是喝水,喝完后就把水递给我dear dear,在这个时候我dear dear就想把钱包和电话拿出来…过一会儿,他一脸又紧张又疑惑的问我是不是已经把东西给拿出来了?但我明明没动到啊?!?!?

听到他这样问,不用想也知道是发生了什么大事了…我直接把所有地方给搜了两三遍,但就是找不到了:(…到最后我终于放弃了,而我心里那种复杂的心情,直接 泪如雨下,无法控制!在旁还搞不清楚状况的dear dear给我这种反应给吓到了,他连忙在旁安慰我这个反应过大的女朋友…

冷静后的我就检查看看到底我和dear dear损失到多严重….哇靠,不算还ok,一算就大件事了…大约有RM3000啊…oh my god,无法接受这个事实,再度失控…过了数十几分钟,又被我的dear dear平抚了我的心情…过后就回家了!在回他家的路上,平时很叽喳的我,变到很沉默…{连我本身都无法相信}

发生这样的事,连吃早餐的胃口都没了…中午十二点,直到我做工时,就以吃来解决心里的不愉快…大约一点多时,我dear dear出现在我做工的地方,把一模一样的电话交给了我!他说:’那,这个电话给你…’!我还没反应过来,新电话就被他塞在我的手里!过后他就回家了…

到了傍晚六点多,我dear dear又来载我放工了!放工后我就到他家吃饭!过后再回家…

回到家后,我妈就问我很多问题,但我都把东西被偷的事给删了,只说我电话没电了之类的话来掩饰!因为只要我妈知道此事,我看我的耳朵就要受罪了…

总之,2008年2月10日可说是我最难忘的一天啊……………….

当然也希望这件事能瞒多久就瞒多久:(…

haiz~

but i still using that~

i cant ~

almost 1 month already

i though i can really put down the thing between u n me

but today i just realize that

i may to celebrate the " anniversary" every month

when i at school, i feel good, because of my friends

but sometime when i back hostel/home, i will start to think about the things that we had done together

i know someone was waiting

i know someone will get hurt

but as i know is i can't easily to forget what had pass in my life

may be that is a challenge for me, to help me grown

and yet i haven't start to accept this challenge

thats why, it always make me feel complicated, down and sad><

i can't i can't i can't !!!

just right now!

我不是。。。

我不是。。。

不是个好女孩
也不是个坏女孩
*
脾气不是很好
但也不是很坏
*
性格有时很顺他人
有时也会很固执
*
不是你想象中的那样好
也不是你想象中的那样坏
*
不是你口中，心中的好女孩
也不是你口中。心中的坏女孩
*
不是那么的笨
但也不是很聪明
*
不善于表达内心
但又很想表达
*
很想勇于尝试
但害怕失败
*
想勇敢踏出那一步
却不舍得

我不是个懦弱的女孩
只是不够坚强

而我

现在就只想做个普通的，平凡的，简单的女孩~

梦~

在我的梦里，又有你的出现，

是我日有所思，夜有所梦吗？

以前的我，不管梦到好梦还是恶梦，

隔天醒来，就会打通电话给你。

如果是恶梦，你也会说，--

“不要乱乱想啦，如果真的发生了，有我在；
以后睡觉前就不要想太多，如果不能睡就打给我咯，我的电话为你开着的。。”

现在勒？只能一个人在那边酸着鼻，流着泪。。

这才发现，醒后的得我

很寂寞，很孤单。。。。。。

我选择了~

由于寂寞,我选择了挣脱.

由于清醒,我选择了沉思.

由于看不见未来,我选择了放弃.

由于放弃,我选择了眼泪.

由于割舍,我选择了释然.

由于释然,我选择了坚强.

由于坚强,我选择了遗忘…是的,

我遗弃了爱情,背叛了爱情.

我做对了吗？

i am wrong~

i think that i make the decision will reduce the stress between you and me..

but i am wrong, i am not saying i am regret now..

just i cant stop to think of you..

whatever i do, i just like lost my soul, stand at there for few second,

when i realize, that is over...

what can i do now..

when face to my friends i cant really say out the word from my heart..

so i just can assume nothing happen on me..

still like last time d me..always laugh, naughty and ...

but i think this few days my friends may start to realize that i actually changes a lots..

especially the ways i talk to them..

since i read an article, said that:" 21 years old d, no more time to let you play even is a little thing.."

should i forget all the silly thing and find out the right way for myself...

sorry ya, this few day i really cant stop it,

wake up wake up!!!
even i wrong now!!!
no turning back!!!

miss u~

1 week ago-
i decided-


yesterday-
i miss u while i do anything-
when i driving-
drinking milo-
taking bath-
hold the phone waiting a call/message from u-
login Facebook wanna know how are you recently-
but you block my account since that moment-
dreaming about u when i sleep-


i miss you when i do anything~

the changes of mine~is because of "u"

all the changes of mine is because of you

i cut my hair is because of you

i improve myself is because of you

i try to change my attitude is because of you

i follow what you instruct me is because of you

i accept all your habit is because of you

i treat you great is because of you

you get hurt/ sad, i will worry about is because of you

you laugh/ happy, i will happy than you also because of you

you know what the feeling i face to you
so, do you understand what i am feel you right now??
so, do you understand why i wanna changes myself??

all are because of "U"~

moody~

just back from the gurney (sing K+dinner)..
my wallet thin liao~haha^^
but felt happy also..
because long time didn't hang out with u all ..
so very appreciate that i have a group of friends like u all...

when i driving to hostel, i think about a thing that i should apologize to my friend..
but i really don't know how i gonna to do..
because i don't know had i doing something wrong to that person or not...
that just of my feeling..

anyway, i should look forward, so i should start my public speakings outline now,
if not i will die very soon...
now no mood and also no have motivate to brainstorm~
god bless me~~

i am not a good gal~

i am not a good gal...
don't know why i said like tat,
but i felt like i will always hurt the others..
actually the action will not hurt the others
i might let the others get hurt one day..
so, what should i do, just can reduce the trouble things happen around you and me..

i really treat you as my "Best Friend",
because i am lose an importance thing few weeks ago and i still need to treat others good to balance my mind..
may be its really will let you feel that i am abnormal,
but i really don't know what can i do...

and i really can't promise what will happen in my future,
because i can't hurt by others anymore
my heart is weak now..
who can save me??
so am i not a good gal?

mass comm 1 day camp..

our mass comm society d 1st event was success ...

i try to get d feedback from d senior n also d junior...

although i get d different feedback from them, but i will do d better than tat on next time..

so need to thank d helper, and d senior n junior..who attended tat day...

COMPLETED ~YEAH~

857days...

857 days tat we are couple...tat was over since today!

read it, if u like...

* I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我爱你，不是因为你是一个怎样的人，而是因为我喜欢与你

在一 起时的感觉..


* No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won‘t make you cry.
没有人值得你流泪，值得让你这么做的人不会让你哭泣..


*The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can‘t have them.
失去某人，最糟糕的莫过于，他近在身旁，却犹如远在天边..


*Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
纵然伤心，也不要愁眉不展，因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容..


*To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
对于世界而言，你是一个人；但是对于某个人，你是他的整个世 界..


*Don‘t waste your time on a man/woman, who isn‘t willing to waste their time on you.
不要为那些不愿在你身上花费时间的人而浪费你的时间..


*Just because someone doesn‘t love you the way you want them to, doesn‘t mean they don‘t love you with all they have.
爱你的人如果没有按你所希望的方式来爱你，那并不代表他们没 有全心全意地爱你..


*Don‘t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要着急，最好的总会在最不经意的时候出现..


* Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
在遇到梦中人之前，上天也许会安排我们先遇到别的人；在我们 终于遇见心仪的人时，便应当心存感激..


* Don‘t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因为结束而哭泣，微笑吧，为你的曾经拥有..

chinese..华语。。久违了。。

好久没用华文来部落，部落一下了。。

今天就来重温华文吧。。

刚考完一科ELECTRONIC PUBLISHING~~

应该可以过吧。。不懂？？看老师咯~~

说到考试。。别人就快考完了，我勒。咳~竟然到26号才完。。

都是自己笨咯。。又不努力。。最后‘肥佬’了。。被迫补考，靠~

接下来要‘受’的就是华文科了。。

所以加油咯~

亦希望我的朋友们可以pass到完啦~

+u +u 咯，还有“奸爸爹”咯（刚重看72家，学到的）

RedBox day...

today we achieve our promise that go sing K at redbox..

the ppl who attend this happy hour are-->vikram, layhoon, tsenlung, kokchun, muchen,kelvin, vincent, kaichun,AJ@her BF and me...

but b4 go gurney, my friend and i spend abit of time to interview my lecturer-->ms LimLaiHoon about our chinese assignment...so when i arrived gurney is already 5pm...

we waiting outside awhile..the d receptionist find a quite medium d room for us...Y say like tat?
actually d room is ok...just because d ppl is too many so d seat is 'gam gam' for us...

during d K time...we non-stop shouting...is quite high la...haha~~

after sing K, some1 go ATM; some1 'watch the movie at there' when we leave also don know...and he looks funny...haha

Dinner-->kelvin suggest go eat chicken chop..so we also follow them..

after dinner we go bk our hostel take our rest d ...

haha...a happy hour pass agian n also feel that very fast...

dating day..

2day(wednesday), i finish class early n i promise my dear go dating whole day..


so i plan go having lunch ,watch movie,and sing K..... with my dear...


actually i wan eat d curry mee that near fatty low d...but unfortunally-->OFF
so i changes to gurney having our lunch...wah~~we spend around RM30 ++ at there..


Movie time-->i watch movie with my dear...(14 blades), this movie is quite nice...


after that we go sing K at redbox lo ...we 2 ppl totally sing 3 hours long...
so when we came out 'no sound' already...


after that our Dating day finish d...


then our happy "dating trip" is ending at here.HAHA~~

KEEP FIT..

after CNY i really fat 'abit',everyone see me will say that, "ur body like 'fat' abit liao hor..." OMG...i really want to plan to keep fit..

so, i plan to cook by myself:

morning -->oat+milo@milk

lunch-->as normal..

dinner-->DIY beehoon veg soup+apple..
can slim down...don know lo...hope can la...

of course not only the food need to control la...this few day i have ask my friend to gym(too many ppl inside so cancel), jogging(no gym so changes to jogging at the garden lo) and play squash(2day 1st time touch this ball)...

1st i walk in...i shout d..cos my frined -->vikram, already start and i cant estimate the speed of the ball so i continue shouting and laughing in the court...(another friend-->tsenlung also laugh at outside)

after 1hour++, we 3 ppl no energy d...so back hostel d lo...

then, my squash time is over 2day, and bk hostel eat my DIY beehoon veg soup...

haiz~~KEEP FIT is a hard job in my life!!

wow..appear again..haha

this post is my 1st blog at year 2010...hehe^^ very expactancy right...haha

ermmmm~~what i wan to say leh?

this few month hv many thing happen lo...but i cant really list out, so i skip la..haha

talk about last week d la...my best friend -->holiday (kei kei) bk here...i only hv 1 day time to enjoy with her ..not enough la...haiz... kei ur suprize is very suprize d lor...


(photo--> holiday,layhoon.kokchun,muchen,tsenlung,vikram,vivian,yeemin,
fangkai,huipei,tangtang and me...)

next funny thing is last week i bk hometown, my sister show me her leg in front me...???

i don know have any different then she say,:"yesterday my leg bite by my friend d dog...tat time i sit at motor kor..."..HAHAHAHAHAHA...funny la...and see again her '4 hole+blackgreen' n laugh again...

nw at my hostel look at d wall...write my 1st year 2010 d blog...1 word 2 discribe-->Sian~~~

what will come out from my next blog...i also don know..i hope i hv d inspiration la..haha..(actually not funny at all, but do know y i still wan laugh)