life of year 2 ~

my year 2 life was very busy tired and also not confident at all...

the assignment = hard

the exam = very hard

the mental problem = serious

the stress = very serious

what should i do, i just want graduate with merit result

but why i saw the exam Q. felt like i cant graduate

very scare now

hope can pass all

hope dont let me do 2nd time of the same paper

hope hope hope

also prove that study not as easy as you think

exam stress~

i dont know why i will be like that

STRESS!!

actually my problem not only happend between exam period

before presentation or other things i will also be like that

before exam, because of STRESS i cant concentrated on my notes

during exam, because of STRESS i lose my confident on the paper

after exam, because of STRESS i not dare to do the revision on next subject

so, is it my physical mental problem??

i just want be a normal student

do well in the exam

but why??

it will appeared many such thing in my mind??

STRESS PLEASE GO AWAY FROM ME!!!

review~

just go my friendster profile

saw my last post at there (friendster's blog)...

<难过的一天…>

新年刚开始不到四天的我,身材已经开始胖了…在我的建议下,我和我的dear dear决定到水坝跑步!今天一大早,我就把我的dear dear给叫醒,准备开始我的减肥计划!一路上我们都有说有笑,到了水坝,我把我和dear dear的钱包和电话收在一个蛮安全的地方,就下车了….

过了大约四十五分钟,我们又有说有笑的走回车上..当我要开门的时后,我觉得很奇怪为什么副座的门怎么没琐上,但上车后,我也没发现有什么不妥!运动后 的我最想要做的就是喝水,喝完后就把水递给我dear dear,在这个时候我dear dear就想把钱包和电话拿出来…过一会儿,他一脸又紧张又疑惑的问我是不是已经把东西给拿出来了?但我明明没动到啊?!?!?

听到他这样问,不用想也知道是发生了什么大事了…我直接把所有地方给搜了两三遍,但就是找不到了:(…到最后我终于放弃了,而我心里那种复杂的心情,直接 泪如雨下,无法控制!在旁还搞不清楚状况的dear dear给我这种反应给吓到了,他连忙在旁安慰我这个反应过大的女朋友…

冷静后的我就检查看看到底我和dear dear损失到多严重….哇靠,不算还ok,一算就大件事了…大约有RM3000啊…oh my god,无法接受这个事实,再度失控…过了数十几分钟,又被我的dear dear平抚了我的心情…过后就回家了!在回他家的路上,平时很叽喳的我,变到很沉默…{连我本身都无法相信}

发生这样的事,连吃早餐的胃口都没了…中午十二点,直到我做工时,就以吃来解决心里的不愉快…大约一点多时,我dear dear出现在我做工的地方,把一模一样的电话交给了我!他说:’那,这个电话给你…’!我还没反应过来,新电话就被他塞在我的手里!过后他就回家了…

到了傍晚六点多,我dear dear又来载我放工了!放工后我就到他家吃饭!过后再回家…

回到家后,我妈就问我很多问题,但我都把东西被偷的事给删了,只说我电话没电了之类的话来掩饰!因为只要我妈知道此事,我看我的耳朵就要受罪了…

总之,2008年2月10日可说是我最难忘的一天啊……………….

当然也希望这件事能瞒多久就瞒多久:(…

haiz~

but i still using that~

i cant ~

almost 1 month already

i though i can really put down the thing between u n me

but today i just realize that

i may to celebrate the " anniversary" every month

when i at school, i feel good, because of my friends

but sometime when i back hostel/home, i will start to think about the things that we had done together

i know someone was waiting

i know someone will get hurt

but as i know is i can't easily to forget what had pass in my life

may be that is a challenge for me, to help me grown

and yet i haven't start to accept this challenge

thats why, it always make me feel complicated, down and sad><

i can't i can't i can't !!!

just right now!

我不是。。。

我不是。。。

不是个好女孩
也不是个坏女孩
*
脾气不是很好
但也不是很坏
*
性格有时很顺他人
有时也会很固执
*
不是你想象中的那样好
也不是你想象中的那样坏
*
不是你口中，心中的好女孩
也不是你口中。心中的坏女孩
*
不是那么的笨
但也不是很聪明
*
不善于表达内心
但又很想表达
*
很想勇于尝试
但害怕失败
*
想勇敢踏出那一步
却不舍得

我不是个懦弱的女孩
只是不够坚强

而我

现在就只想做个普通的，平凡的，简单的女孩~

梦~

在我的梦里，又有你的出现，

是我日有所思，夜有所梦吗？

以前的我，不管梦到好梦还是恶梦，

隔天醒来，就会打通电话给你。

如果是恶梦，你也会说，--

“不要乱乱想啦，如果真的发生了，有我在；
以后睡觉前就不要想太多，如果不能睡就打给我咯，我的电话为你开着的。。”

现在勒？只能一个人在那边酸着鼻，流着泪。。

这才发现，醒后的得我

很寂寞，很孤单。。。。。。